Oh my. Memories.
Long distance is difficult. Anyone who says differently is just flat out lying. I was going through some old pictures on my computer and I stumbled upon this little gem. This is what Sam and I’s first Valentine’s Day together looked like. I ordered Sushi. He ordered a cheeseburger. We got all dolled up… And ate on our beds. Over Skype.
But to me, it was the most special, most romantic Valentine’s date ever because I was spending it with a man who I was pretty sure was my soul mate (hey, look who was right). Of course, in hindsight, this was nothing compared to the stops he’s pulled out on our real-life dates (though I despise calling it that because our whole romance is real life! But for lack of a better word…)!
Looking through these old photos have got me a bit nostalgic, but it’s made me realize how strong the two of us are for getting through this. It’s not easy to be in love and be over 3,000 miles apart, and that’s just a fact of life. All that matters is that Sam and I have the determination, strength, and abundant amount of love for one another to make it work.
I am quite possible the WORST eater in the history of EVER!
I am a food junkie fanatic. I will skip meals to “make up” for my late night piggie fests. It’s terribly awful. I mean, I do try and eat healthy. My meals are fine… it’s the snacking that’s out of hand! My point is, for wedding preparations, and just to generally feel better about my size 10 ass, I have decided to try to live a healthier life. The problem is… I have no idea where to start! Does anybody have some simple and easy (and yummy) tips and tricks for a healthier lifestyle? I do go for runs, and I have cut out most sodas and that crap from my diet. But it’s hardly making a dent. I think I need some help.
So I suppose our original wedding is back on…
Due to the major surprise that was, our original wedding plan was cancelled. Instead, we were opting for a small quickie ceremony relatively soon.
However, now that that is unnecessary, I have shifted into full wedding planning overdrive!! With no more bumps (no, not even baby bumps) in the way, there is nothing stopping me from having my dream wedding! Though any wedding with Sam would be my dream wedding ;)
No one ever makes me smile quite like this man. And even though it feels like it’s been ages since I’ve last smiled, I know that once I do again, it’ll be because of this man right here. Love you hon 😘
And just like that my whole world changes. Again.
Sunday morning I was taken to the hospital and by Sunday afternoon I got the news that I miscarried. While the initial pregnancy was a complete and total surprise, my fiancé and I couldn’t have been happier. In fact, just the day before the event we had been looking through my fiance’s home in England, determining which would be the baby’s room and discussing how we would decorate it. We were over the moon. And I know that when the proper time comes for us to expand our little party of two, that will be just as wonderful and just as special as this surprise was. While I know that Sam would give anything in this whole wide world to be by my side through this, it doesn’t make it any easier to go through this alone. But I know my fiancé is with my in spirit and the two of us will get through this! When the time is right, we’ll have our family. Until then, I’ve got the man of my dreams all to myself and I’m going to cherish every second of it!
I suppose the best part about this little surprise is that I get to raise a child with this wonderful goober of a man.
I have heard and read a lot about morning sickness
but not of that prepared me for what I’m facing- which seems to be all-freaking-day sickness. Morning and night I’m sick as a dog, but the middle of the day I’m totally fine. What on earth is going on with my body
So my fiancé has just landed back home in England. And I have just found out I’m pregnant. Splendid.